ahuntersheart:

98.  Vincent van Gogh, whose depression, some say, was
likely related to temporal lobe epilepsy, famously saw and
painted the world in almost unbearably vivid colors.  Af-
ter his nearly unsuccessful attempt to take his life by
shooting himself in the gut, when asked why he should
not be saved, he famously replied, “The sadness will last
forever.”  I imagine he was right.

Bluets, Maggie Nelson